dear BF, dont leave me alone

its like 3 months before the engagement...our engagement...well the reason i create this blog so i can be sincere to myself...some might find it ugly how someone who is about the settle down has feelings for someone else...well..maybe that is what they call UGLY TRUTH...now im trying to start all over new...i try to focus life i have now....

me n him...which him?..my BF...he has been working hard to make sure he is ready for our future plan but im afraid he start to abandon me..i try to give him the signal not to do that often no matter how i understand what he is doing but i need some attention too..we have been in long distance relationship for like 6years...we seldom meet..maybe 3,4 times each year...so all i asks is his attention...yea, we talk everyday but now its getting regular and sour....its like we have this must-ask question for each other like 'have u eat?'..'what u wear?..' and we start to enter silent zone....am i asking too much from him??...i feel so greedy at the moment....last night we had dis little discussion about what colour we should wear for the engagement..itu macam tak tentu hala discussionnya...i wish it will be something fun to discuss... =( life is not beautiful as it is.....

now im missing him..he remain silent..does he fall asleep again?...where are you when i need u........the temptation is so great out there...hold me closer...im hang on to you................